Thursday, September 27, 2007

Distractions..

Been Studying for a while early in the morning and my gf distracts me from the monotonous rambling of the video lecturer and points me to a link on RPG's blog and tells me she is Loyal and Devoted... O_o... And I am an easy distractable guy.. You know the type who sits in the library peeping around waiting for things to happen so i can immediately throw the books away. Then I decided I should take the test too.. For FUN.. I have done easily like 10+ of these tests before with each one telling me I am different in some sense or another. Anyway this is what it says I am.

You Are An ENTP

The Visionary

You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.
You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.
Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.
You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.

In love, you see everything as a grand adventure. You enjoy taking risks for love.
And if things don't work out, you're usually not too much worse for the wear!

You would make a great entrepreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

At work, you need a lot of freedom to pursue your own path and vision.
How you see yourself: Analytical, creative, and peaceful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Detached, wishy-washy, and superficial


So what does that tell you..?

I am conclusively an Easily Distracted guy.. The kind who wakes up early to study but ends up taking a personality test and then writes a blog post about it.

Till next time
Cheers c\_/...

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Update!!

Sorry folks been sometime since I last updated this as I was shifting house and had to move things the entire of last week. My parents just bought a new house slightly further away from London. If anyone wants to google map it like RPG, its at Snowden Hill @ Northfleet.

The neighborhood is more of an industrial area and there is a railway track a stone throw away(thats not how i measured the distance). But its kinda quiet and peaceful. But there isnt anything much to do near the house. That is if you are thinking about having legal entertainment. There is almost nothing in the 5 mile radius that is worthy of entertainment.... Unless you classify entertainment as seeing cars pass by.

There is a shopping centre a few miles from here but whats a broke guy going to do at shopping centre. People say its huge but all those who said that have obviously never been to Singapore - The shopping centre capital. The only possible thing I could do there is look at girls. Oh trust me on this people... Singapore could have more shopping centres... BUT on a sunday the ratio of fit chicks to the shopping centre there is far greater than any shopping centre in Singapore... Hands down!!

But I only go there occasionally.. No no not to look at girls, if you are thinking I am some desperate pervert (which most guys are) then you are thinking correct. But i don't make an extra effort to look at girls like those criminal perverts (most of you would know that I am not THAT hard working). Anyway I go there to meet up a few of my brothers friends. Besides that I sit at home and mug mug away for the upcoming exams in December.

I don't dread mugging much as the subject is amazingly interesting and everything I ever wanted to do. Hoping that it would get better and eventually get a fulfilling career. Thank you Sze Chuan(Hope I spelt it correct) and Prof Ong Chin Huat for recommending me the course. Hahahha. More on that later....

Anyway thats what my life currently has been lately. Till next time people
Enjoy and Have a great time!!

Cheers c\_/...

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Thinking

I think a lot. What i mean by I think i lot is that my mind revels on lots of things going on in my life to the extent i over imagine things. By this time you must be confused and wondering what exactly i am talking about.

Let me explain... Have you ever liked a girl but you dunno whether she liked you back. And then you start looking closely at her body language and how she talks to you and behaves with you, just so you can see if you stand a chance. Maybe she has a headache and you think she hates you and doesnt want to have a conversation bla bla bla. And as if by chance there will always be this faggot who starts liking her sooner after that. And you start thinking whether she likes him more than you or perhaps you feel that he is a better choice as you are exposed to a pleathora of dirty thoughts in your head. Then you try extra hard to please the girl by doing something unnecessary and additional that you have never done before. Why did you do that..? You have never done such a thing before and you start thinking more... And the more you think the more awkward the situation feels and you just want to get the shit out of the situation. See.. All of this is done by your allmighty head which was up to no good.

I think a lot.. You know like I spent two years thinking why one of my closest pal said I am a unworthy of a friend and that he regrets ever having hung out with me. I cherish or atleast I feel that I cherish friendship quite a bit and to hear these kinda things from you friend screws with your head in a way you never expect.

For the next two years I have been thinking why is it that he said that..? Was it like an april fool's joke which he forgot to clarify, only that it was February that time. Hey you know some people cant wait for April so they drop this kind of things earlier. Did I do something wrong? DUH!! But what did I do..? And i spoke to a few of my other close friends about it and they say nice things to me and Ill feel a bit better about myself. But at the back of your head it always keeps nagging at you.... Am i a lousy friend...? Then i realised F***, if he really treasured friendship he wouldnt have said such shit in the first place. Well took me two years to realise with the amount of thinking I do... Ha theres my brain for you.

I think a lot... and put myself in imaginary situations and start being someone I am not, like how great it would be if I am superman or something. THEN I can be all noble and brave and help the rest of the world.. Ha I am in my twenties, graduated but jobless and I cant even help myself totally and I keep thinking I can save the world. Ha all of you reading this must be laughing at the all giant super story unfolding in my head but I know you do it too. Dont give me the no no no, I am all mature and grown up and have pure thoughts bull shit. Every guy reading this would have atleast once in life imagined himself in a amorous act with a girl (or a guy if youre gay) that you know. And you girls are no exception too, you have your own shitty things to think about.

Ha anyway... I think a lot........ And after 20 odd years I have been wondering that maybe I should use this gift that i have been given for a better use. At times my ability to think has served me well in this world where common sense isnt so common anymore. Finally besides wondering if I am the unique specimen, one of the many experiments of god (whom i dont believe in by the way) gone wrong, I decided I shall analyze something more constructive. Maybe ill waste my immense processing power on things other than to sense if a girl likes me, why I could be so shitty yada yada yada. Ha I am going to have a care free life where i judge myself less and jude other things more.. Ahahaha.. So bless you all (Like I can) and have a great day..